Chapter: Inside my heart

Chapter 1:

A few years have passed and Sakura was still standing in front of the bank like every morning, where everything ended. She still thought of him. To the people who made you so happy and yet so hurt you. Every time she stood where he thanked him and just left, she thought of the Uchiha. Nobody would ever be able to put him out of her mind. No way! Even if she had wanted it that way, her love for him doesn't seem to be extinguished. Always close to tears she stands there, every day in the hope that the black-haired one would come back one day. But each time she waited in vain. There was no answer from him for five years, in her the desperation rose more and more. None of her friends could give her comfort, even if they tried really hard, especially Naruto couldn't bear to see her so unhappy anymore. For her love, he always went to look for him in the evening. He didn't believe he'd ever watch his teammates again either, but the blonde would still do anything for Sakura.Even if he no longer felt love for her, because he has been a couple with Hinata for quite some time. The pink-haired woman had meanwhile sat down on the bench on which she had placed Sasuke when he left. How she hated Orochimaru for it. Everything broke through him, had it not been for YOUR Uchiha would never have left. He alone is to blame, and he will have to pay for it! Now she lived like her crush ... only for revenge on someone who had stolen her life, everything they loved everywhere. So they still had something in common. The Konoha-Gakure church bell struck at the ninth hour. Yes, she wanted to marry Sasuke in church, she had always dreamed of that. At some point the Uchiha couldn't have resisted her anymore. She was absolutely convinced of that. All the plans for the future she had forged were all puffy now. Because if the man she loves does not appear, the best plans are ineffective. She got up because she still wanted to go shopping.She was now a tender twenty years old and lived alone in an apartment that was too big. At least she'd have something from him. But does she really want to see him again? Have tormented yourself all the time until he finds the time to show up again? To be honest, she didn't know if she wanted to see him again, she's still hurt. What he did wasn't the best either. What did he thank you for? That she cried and confessed her love to him? That she wanted him to stay, made him feel like he was never alone? If only he had said something to her then. at least that he likes her. That would have changed her whole life. She thought about all the past days, which were better than after his time, while she thoughtfully pushed her shopping scales through the aisles. And all because of just one guy. With that thought in mind, unable to finish it. Because in the middle of it she found herself on the floor, her circulation had apparently failed. Why?Why does this always have to happen to you? Without being able to think of an appropriate answer, her vision blurred and she slumped again ...

A light. That was the only thing she noticed when she opened her bright green eyes.
"Hey there. You finally woke up, honey." A soft voice could be heard. who was that? Where was she? Everywhere the girl with the cherry blossom-colored hair looked, she only looked into the white. She was in a white room with white curtains. Her bed was all white. The only thing that was colored was a desk made of Sycomoren wood. Which at least gave the room a little flair. Still pale, Sakura now looked at the woman who had spoken to her. It didn't take her long now to realize where she was. In the hospital. What happened? Somehow everything ran past her, she wasn't quite with herself. But when the blue-haired girl noisily sits down next to her on the bed, she found her way back to reality.Hinata, she works in the hospital, just like Sakura herself. The two girls only became friends when Naruto brought them a little closer together.
"What happened?" she asked sickly. She really didn't feel special, but why? She didn't seem to care about anything. With Sasukes disappearing, everything in her disappeared too. Her cheerfulness, her encouraging being, everything childish and happy disappeared. She lived almost exclusively on grief and hatred. All of her friends noticed this, no one has escaped this fact, even people she only knew fleetingly have heard of her story about Sasuke. Some expressed their deepest regret, others thought it was unimportant and childish and still others think they could end up with her now. But nothing there! Her heart still belonged to the guy who had left her, who gave her the cold shoulder and who was so emotionally cold too. But wasn't that always the kind she found attractive?To conquer a guy who is like Sasuke is a challenge for every girl and in the course of time she becomes more and more painfully aware that she had lost exactly this challenge ... to Orochimaru.
"You broke down in the supermarket! Again! I told you last time you should make sure you eat something Sakura, otherwise something terrible can happen!" Yes, Hinata said this every time Sakura was brought back to the hospital. If things go on like this, she would soon have to give the Hokage, Tsunade orders. After all, the Hyuuga descendant was very worried about her now best friend. But like every time, Sakura only dismissed it with a nod. As usual, she had absolutely no desire for such conversations.
"Well, I have to go back now. Take a rest, I might come over to your place tonight." she said as she gently caressed the patient's cheek and left the room. Well now she was alone again, as lonely as in her heart.She feels the cold touching her skin, although no window is open, she froze. How so? The world is already complicated, especially for them. // Sasuke where are you? Why are you leaving me alone You never liked me, did you? // this thought was followed by goosebumps.
"Hello Sakura-chan." a friendly voice called. Torn from her thoughts, she looked at the disturbing person after a sigh. What does the person want from her, who is it? she asked herself mentally until she saw the disturbing factor.
"Lee, what do you want?" at these words she turned her head towards the window. It was a beautiful sight, the flowers in front of her window were in full bloom. She loved to watch the flowers, which were the same color as her hair. How easily they bent in the wind or how isolated flowers danced in the wind.
So it was Lee. What did he want this time? Since Sasuke left, he's literally stuck to her ass. He's in love with her, and has been for so long, but each time he got one basket after the next from her.Doesn't anyone understand that she's already taken in her heart? Even who the guy isn't even looking at her with his ass? Even though she doesn't know if he's still alive? Apparently nobody understands it, or one does not want to understand it.
"I wanted to see how you are ... and ..." he said while placing a row of flowers in a vase.
"I don't want a date with you, don't always ask!" she said, with a bit of anger in her voice. He looked hurt at her. He had waited all these years until Sasuke could no longer overtake him, was there when she needed him and lived his life only for her. He didn't understand her situation at all.
"Can't you forget the guy? He will NEVER come back Sakura, start living!" he shouted as he stormed out of the room with tears in his eyes. Didn't he know how much he hurt her with his statement? Why did he say that of all things?
She was still sitting in her sickroom. The white of the walls drove her crazy.Why did Lee have to bang her head like that? Couldn't he have kept his thoughts to himself? First he helps her wherever he can and now? Now he let her psyche sink into the cellar. Why did he have to come too ?! Now the cherry blossom girl was sitting in her bed, staring incessantly, almost as if in hypnosis, at the only colored object in the room, the desk. Apparently the white color was no longer sufficient for this. She tried to get to the table, although she is still very unsteady on her feet. Now she was sitting there on the white folding chair in front of the wooden table. Her eyes met white again, namely white paper! She took a pen and began to write down her thoughts in a letter addressed to Sasuke.

Dear Sasuke,

I know that you will probably never get to see the letter, but I want to share these lines with you.
I love you, still after all these years of suffering and grief.
Why did you leave?And did you leave the others and me, especially ME, alone?
The years without you were years full of suffering, grief and pain for me. It's like you took part of my personality with you when you left.
do you know what agony it was for me when you left? Without knowing why DER Uchiha thanks me? Do you know how much I loved you and still love you?
Still, actually I don't want to see you anymore, even if my heart longs for you. But I'm afraid. Afraid that you will come back, then leave us alone again. I won't get through it again!
After five years, I'm still on IV fluids! yes, even now that I am writing these lines, I am lying in the hospital again because I have hardly eaten anything because of you. Because of you, just because you left, my life is ruined!
I swear to you, I will forget you, no longer direct my life according to you, no longer long for your smell!Even if it will take a long time, I'll make it and not wait for you anymore!

in love sakura
ps. I'm going to eat now!

With a sigh, she put the pen aside and folded the letter into her pocket. Nobody would see the letter again, she swore when she left the hospital ...