first face

Hello!!!!!!!!!!! Yes, I have a new Ff again .... I'm sorry that I have to do this to you ... xDD nja hope you like it anyway and you don’t torment yourselves there .... well there are not so many words ... so have fun ^^

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Everyone has several faces ... most of them have two that they always use. I, on the other hand, have another one. Yes exactly ... 3 faces. Do you want to know what they look like? Are you interested in knowing their meaning? Then you should definitely read on.

The first face that I will speak or write about is a very closed mask. I always use this when I'm on the go. My gestures are neutral ... and rather dismissive, but my facial expressions are hard, consistent and mostly straightforward.
I avoid looking people in the face and only tell them something with my gaze. He says "don't talk to me, I'm in a bad mood" or something like that ... you wonder why?Sometimes I don't know myself ... it seems to be a kind of mechanism in which I really entrench myself every time.
I see people, avoid their eyes and look elsewhere. There are days when I believe ... that this behavior should be a protection ...

protection from people ...
before the feelings of this ...
a protection to fight fear ...

Anxiety?

Fear of being hurt again ...
disappointed…
and to be exploited ...

This mask stays upright in public, it's just a facade ...

hard and impenetrable ...

The only question I still ask is very difficult. Can you change so far to take off such a strong mask?
Everyone has to find out for themselves. One thing is certain ...

It is very difficult for us to ... eliminate our habits and, above all, familiar traits ... which do not actually belong to us ...

especially if we as humans have often been / are disappointed or deceived ...-------------------------------------------------- --------- ´

Yup, that's it ... I know very little .... And did you survive it well or was it very bad !? xD

Himo