third face

Pain, hope or both ... together?
I do not know. It is like light and darkness.
Two sides of one soul ...

This is the third face….

Pain, hope ... all of that expresses it ... the third side of myself. I don't know exactly ... how to describe it because I'm not sure what properties it has. If I had to decide now I would say that it has properties from the two previous pages. But again not. So what's the best way to start?

How about the facial expressions and gestures?
The facial expression ... is rather sad and shows a trace of loneliness. In addition, the whole body seems very vulnerable ... and limp ...
Still, I don't want to show it, try to hide it and try to appear cramped and self-confident.

But this behavior only strengthens the inner feeling, it becomes more intense and penetrates the outside world. You can see it because it's obvious ...
Even if my face looks severe ... my eyes show something completely different ...….Uncertainty,

... and cold, which makes me doubt every time ...

Both are deep in my inner concealment ... but not only these ... you can also discover other profound feelings behind my eyes ...

That is why the eyes are also called soul mirrors ...

... because through them you can look to the bottom of a soul ...

... because they show our strongest and most secret feelings ...?

Even if it should be like that ... it is for me at the moment ... no matter ... because I never show this side of myself to the public ... and if I do ... then my fellow human beings and even myself don't notice it ...
As I said, I hide it as best as possible ...

It clearly shows too many feelings ... and I don't want that.

If I walked around with this face ... I would feel like an open book ... everyone ... really everyone could look inside me ...

See what I am ... who I am ...

then take advantage of this ...

It's difficult to keep your true feelings to yourself, to hide them ... and that's why ... such moments in which I let it go are rare ...Then only when I'm alone, in my room or outdoors ... in this short moment I can let my feelings run free

Anger, pain, sadness, joy, loneliness ... everything else that I suppress .... comes to light ...

I have no idea whether this third page ... really counts as such ...

If I were to flaunt it ... could it be different ... or would I still have to think about it? As a result, it would never let go of me no matter what I do.

I think it depends on each individual how he sees this face ... I personally ... see it as ... dark pain ...

I am falling… falling in the dark….

Can you see me ...
Can you hear my scream…?

Do not say no… you must see it….

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sup that was the penultimate chapter .... ^^ yes there is one more thing to come ^^ ... I continue to torture you .... Höhö

Xiao