Chapter: A hard time

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A hard time

So Nicki and Alina made their way to the 14th floor. They stood by the elevator and waited for someone to come down again. When the time came, they got into the elevator with a dozen other people. He stopped at almost every stick. But then they finally arrived. It was a small room when getting out with a couple of armchairs. And if you went to the window, you could see almost the whole city. It was actually a wonderful view, but Nicki wasn't interested in that at the moment. "Alina?" she asked about her company. "Yes, what is there?" said this. "What should I say to him?" she asked in a somewhat uncertain voice. "What you can think of right now. And if you can't think of anything, it's not that bad either. The most important thing for him will be that you are just there for him."Said Alina with an unfamiliar calming tone that Nicki had never heard from anyone except Alex. She gave a slight nod and then started walking with Alina. When they got to the nurses' base, they asked for Alex's room number. She looked a bit in her book and then answered the question: "But he's still asleep, so maybe only one should go in at a time so as not to wake him up. "Then added it." It's good, "said Alina, looking after Nicki when she was already standing in front of Alex's door. Slowly she walked over to her and asked her:" Is everything all right? "" I don't know if I can go in there. I don't want to be sad in front of him or even cry. "She said a little disappointed with herself." And if so. These are just your feelings. The best thing is if you let them out. Alex will understand. I'm sure of that, "said Alina. As Nicki was about to open the door, she was interrupted by a voice she knew."Nicki ... where have you been? I've been looking for you everywhere!" it came from a green-haired sometimes annoying but loving guy. "Tom ... I was in the garden. I'm sorry I didn't tell you where I was going afterwards." Nicki said with her hand on the door handle to Alex's room. "It's okay. Do you want to see Alex?" At that moment, Tom, the black-haired beauty who was standing next to Nicki, liked. //Wow. Who is that? A friend of Nicki's? // he thought to himself. Nicki noticed Tom's look and immediately spoke up. "This is Alina. She is a new friend of mine," she said to Tom. "And Alina, that's Tom. A very good friend of mine and Alex." Alina looked Tom up and down and had to admit that she liked him. There was something about him that she liked.

During the signals that Tom and Aina gave each other, she reached for the door handle again. Slowly she opened the door. Alina and Tom didn't notice at first. But then Nicki was suddenly gone and both could only imagine that she had finally gone to Alex.Alina had a slight smile on her face and Tom couldn't explain why. Alina just shook her head and then asked him if they would like to sit down somewhere in the meantime.

With Alex in the hospital room:

Nicki closed the door behind her and stood there. She stood between the bed and the door and looked at Alex. // He's asleep ... and he looks like he always does // she thought to herself. She had to take all her courage to go to him. She thought for a long time. She wondered if it wasn't a dream, if she should just go out again or if she should go over to him. But in the end she decided on the latter. She didn't want to leave him alone. Not in this situation. She knew very well that neither would he. So she put one foot in front of the other and slowly walked towards his bed. There was a chair next to the bed. When she got there, she took it, placed it at about level with his torso, and sat down next to Alex.// Why ... // she thought over and over again. // Why only you, Alex. I do not understand it. You are such a good person how can this supposed god do this to you? If he really existed, he would never have allowed such a thing ... // she thought angrily and clenched her hands in a fist. Then she only felt something warm, liquid running down her cheek and dripping onto her hand. // No ... I have to be strong ... I can do it! I have to be able to do it for Alex! // she wiped away her tears and looked around the room. Then she suddenly saw the clock and saw what time it was. "Oh man, it's really getting late" It was already 7 in the evening. Nicki only now noticed how tired she actually was. She looked at Alex for a while as he lay there and slept. After a while, she laid her head on the bed and took Alex's hand. Then she fell asleep herself. Outside Tom and Alina talked for a while about this and that, but mainly about Nicki and Alex.After a while they fell asleep themselves.

In the middle of the night someone in the hospital woke up. It was Alex. Who finally woke up after many hours of sleep. When he slowly opened his eyes, he first had to orientate himself. He didn't say a word. He didn't know what to say either. No, he didn't even know exactly where he was and what he was doing here. Then suddenly he felt something on his hand. He turned his head to the side and saw her. It was Nicki. She had her hand on his and her head was on the edge of the bed. She was sleeping. //What are you doing here? What's going on here? // He looked at her and considered. He would have loved to wake her up and ask her where she was. But he couldn't. He wanted to let Nicki sleep because she looked like she needed him badly. But suddenly all the devices in the room fell on him. Now that his eyes had adjusted to the darkness, he recognized the room. //I'm in the hospital?But why? // he asked himself. But this thought didn't last long. Because she squeezed his hand tighter. "Nicki ..." he said softly. On the one hand he was really happy that she is with him now, but on the other hand he finally wanted to know why he is here. So he did it after all. He wanted to sit up to wake Nicki but somehow he lacks the strength to do this. He wondered, but couldn't help it. "Hey Nicki ..." he said in a cautious voice. "Sweetie, wake up. Please," he said to her in a loving voice and caressed her hand. The addressed woke up from sleep and slowly opened her eyes. "Hey Nicki ... how are you?" said Alex to her. Nicki had opened her eyes now and focused on him. But she couldn't quite believe what picture was presented to her here. It was Alex who was finally awake again. She couldn't believe it. She could hardly express her relief in words. "Alex…?" she said softly. "Yes?" he said a little confused."You are awake? That ... this is really great. You are finally awake again!" Nicki beamed. Alex wanted to reply something but couldn't get around to it. Because Nicki fell over his neck and hugged him as tightly as she could. "Hey ... Nicki ... if you continue like this ... you will still crush me!" said Alex with a smile on his face. "I'm sorry. I'm just so happy to hear your voice again." Nicki said, tears in his eyes. She didn't know exactly why herself, after all it had 'just' woken up. That would have happened soon anyway. But she was still so happy. "Hey Nicki, why are you crying?" he asked her. "Oh nothing, I'm just looking forward to it," she replied. "Oh. And can you tell me why I'm in the hospital?" he asked further. But this question gave Nicki a stab in her heart. Now she knew again what she had suppressed. Alex was in the hospital because he had cancer. Her expression turned sad and empty. Which she actually didn't want at all.She wanted to be strong for him. "Nicki? What's going on? I never see you so worried. Has something happened?" he asked her and wanted to look her in the eye. But he couldn't because she had lowered her head. "Yes ..." she said softly in a sad voice. Alex's heartbeat quickened after that answer. "And what?" he asked a little nervously, still fixing Nicki with his eyes. But this did not answer. Instead, a single tear ran down her cheek. And when this had finished its way, it dripped onto the back of Alex's hand. He noticed that. "Why are you crying?" he asked worried. "You know I don't want you to be sad, so ... what happened?" he asked worried now. "Alex ..." Nicki wanted to continue, but she couldn't. "What's going on, Nicki?" he asked now, rather worried. "Come on, tell me." Nicki still didn't look at him. But she wanted to tell him. After all, it was his right to know what he had."You didn't wake up this morning in the orphanage because you had a high fever ..." she spoke slowly to herself. "We took you to the hospital and here you were examined ..." she continued and then stopped. Alex looked at her all the while. "And what happened after that?" asked he. "Tom and I waited a long time, but no doctor came. I then wanted to go down to the garden and Tom suddenly followed suit. He told me the doctors now had a diagnosis." She said while her voice was getting lower and lower more and more sad. Alex now also had a somewhat uncomfortable feeling. "And what's the diagnosis?" he asked her. "Alex ..." she waited a bit before saying it. She first had to find the strength to tell him that he had cancer. "You ... have cancer ..." it came from her. Alex, who was now sitting in bed because he had previously raised his backrest, looked at Nicki. But she didn't return his gaze.She just looked at the bed that was in front of her. Alex couldn't believe what Nicki was saying. But he knew she wouldn't lie. "I ... have cancer ..." he began suddenly. Nicki didn't reply, just cried. She hated herself so much for it at the moment, but she couldn't hold it back. Alex noticed it, of course, and knew what to do. He didn't want her to cry because of him. That would be the last thing he wanted. And it didn't matter to him now that he had cancer. The only thing that was important to him was Nicki. His Nicki, she cried because of him. He took her hand and said to her: "Come here to me. Come on, come here." Nicki looked at him