My rainbow

I'll get back to you! This is a fanfic I wrote for a competition.
It's about Meroko and her thoughts on the day she died.
Please give me your opinion on this.

My rainbow

You don't know about this rainbow. You never saw him. But he completely changed my life.
Back when I saw you, Seijuurou and you. You stood in the rain and kissed. How could you do this to me? Why did you risk our friendship so? I still don't understand it to this day. You knew I like him ... I keep thinking about it. This deep pain that I felt at that point. I could only walk. Far away from everything that was important to me. Just get away. Forget everything. I ran through the streets in the rain. I was desperate. I was afraid. Afraid of not being able to go home after seeing this. Fear of not being able to trust my best and only friend any more. That's why I decided to put an end to my life. I didn't want any of that anymore. Crying, pain, being alone. I've had enough of it. I couldn't believe at the moment that I could ever be happy again. That I could just go on living That was unimaginable for me at that moment.
The rain, it pounded on me. I was wet From top to bottom. But I didn't mind. I no longer felt the cold. My heart was racing so I thought it was going to burst anyway. I couldn't get these pictures out of my head. And so I ran on, on and on, to leave these thoughts behind me. I wanted to be faster than these images that haunted me. Wanted to escape them, to displace them ...
And yet I felt nothing but her. My head was blank. Except for these pictures. All good was gone as if there had never been anything good. All the beautiful moments with you were blown away. Path.Banished from my mind
It hurts. My body hurts And yet I keep walking. I notice that my body doesn't want anymore. He walked too much. But I don't want to stop. I'm afraid the pain will worsen. Even more than they were until now. I had to smile at the thought. More pain? This works out? Am I not suffering enough already? A thought rose stronger and stronger in me: You hate this world? Then leave them! Nobody misses you anyway! Your best friend cheated on you, just hurt you. Let her see how she gets along with it!
That thought ... It sounded so tempting at the moment. I didn't want to suffer alone. I wanted the others to see what they were up to! That they notice that because of them a person has died! Yes, I did. Exactly.
And so my steps slowed. My eyes searched the streets. After a deal. And finally I found what I was looking for. I went in and noticed the strange looks on me. You must have thought: "What kind of one is that?", "In the weather without an umbrella?" or "It's good that I didn't turn out like that". I could even hear the thoughts. In my head. and they got louder and louder. Accusations. And even threats. These people, unknown to me, also wanted to get rid of me. And that was fine with me. I picked up a pack of razor blades, paid with the last of my money, and disappeared back into the rain.
Again I ran for quite a while until I came to a bridge. Now it was clear. I did not want to anymore. I just didn't want to anymore. Fear, hatred, despair and anger drove me to death. I saw your smiling face in front of me again. I wished for nothing more than that you would come and smile at me. As always. That was just all a bad dream that I wake up from. But nothing happened. I took a blade and put it on my wrist.Then it happened. I was on the ground. Felt the warm blood on my wrist. And then I saw him. Right above me. The rain had subsided. The sun came and a beautiful rainbow appeared over me. My vision blurred. I felt the life drain from my body. And still I smiled. One last time. Then everything was dark ...