I failed completely (Naruto)

It is dark...
It's incredibly dark here ... ...
Where am I...?
I do not know... ...
But even though it's dark, I feel safe.
The smell strongly reminds me of something familiar.
I know this place even if I don't recognize anything.

My head is hurting... ...
I can't move my body properly ... ..
What happened?
I want to wake up right now.
Something important happened, but I don't know what anymore ... ...
After a sheer eternity, I open my eyes and look around a bit.
My vision is bad and cloudy, but I can tell where I am.
I'm in the hospital ... ... but why ...?

Suddenly I got a severe headache.
My memory is slowly coming back.
Individual chunks play out in front of my eyes, then I recognize you.
You stand away from me on the other side of the waterfall.
You turned your back on me, don't answer me when I ask you something.
But what happened next ...?
Why were you there, so far from home?
Why did you want to go again ...?

I breathe hard, my body hurts terribly.
`I have to get stronger´ ... ... ...
`I have to get away from Konoha´ ... ... ...
`I have to kill my brother, have to take revenge´ ... ... ...
Damn it, you wanted to run away, you were lured away by ... ... by Orochimaru ... ...
It comes back to me ...
I didn't mean to let you go.
I promised Sakura-chan to bring you back.

But you didn't want to go with ...
You said we were just going to hold you up
You said you won't come back
And you attacked me.
Damn, I'm your friend and not your enemy ... ...
Why did you do that?
You have always been a loner, your gaze was always so incredibly cold and lonely.
But then, in the valley of death, an ice-cold shiver ran down my spine when you looked at me.

No...
It wasn't you anymore ... ...
You were everything but not my rival and friend, you were not my Sasuke ... ...I'll openly admit it, I was terrified when you looked at me.
Your eyes flashed red, but the Sharingan had never intimidated me.
It was your look.
Your gaze was cold, lifeless ...
Those weren't your lonely, cold eyes ... ...
They were eyes of a doll, a doll that cannot find anything.

But I'm not giving up on you
I'm so determined that if I need to, I'll break any bones and drag you back.
But you fight back, you are just as determined as I am.
But we've always been like that.
You were a strategist, but we'd like to just hit the wall with our heads.
So it was entirely up to our strength who wins in the end.
Well, actually you don't just want to 'win' ... ...
You want to kill me ... ...
Funny.
I thought best friends don't actually kill each other.
But maybe you're right ... ... maybe you have to kill me ... ...
I can't judge that, after all, you were my first best friend.

A bitter struggle breaks out between us.
I'll try everything, set my doppelgangers on you, try the Rasengan.
But you are much stronger than me
You're quick, grab my throat and push me up with ease.
There aren't those strange characters on your skin ... ... or spots ...
I tell you you are my best friend.
I'm crying, but you don't notice it thanks to all the water on my face.
I don't want to die, do you hear ...?
I want to go back to Konoha with you, train with you there, have fun and argue.
You pierce me with the chidori - your strongest technique.
I have a severe pain on the left side of my chest ... ...
You hit me hard ... ...
I'm almost losing consciousness ... ... ... ...

I would have liked to have avoided it, would have gladly saved you.
But you don't give me any choice, my friend.Knowing that it is dangerous for me like you, I used the red chakra - the nine-tail.
I block your next stroke, then you back away quickly.
I feel the wound healing and look to you.
You look scared and shocked ... ...
Right ... ... when I used this chakra on Haku, you were passed out.
Against Gaara, you were too preoccupied with these spots to notice.
You look weird.
I've never seen you so upset.
But we can laugh about that later.

I rushed up to you, too fast for your eyes.
I'll beat you up like a diaper, please forgive me for that.
I'll beat you up, drive you up and down the rock face, throw you over the water.
Then we stop briefly, stand and on tree trunks.
I am exhausted... ...
The chakra is still too dangerous for me and my young body.
You're also out of breath, staring at me in confusion, looking for a solution.
I'll try one last time ... ...
"Sasuke, stop it ... you're like a brother to me, let's go back home."
You are silent, just look at me.
I believe my words are reaching you.
I smile, "Let us back. You are my best friend, I don't want to keep fighting you."

Suddenly you take your headband out of your pocket and put it around you.
Your cold voice reaches me, but it also sounds infinitely sad ... ...
"It's too late, Naruto. I can't go back ... ..."
I am appalled.
Why do you make me hurt you?
I don't want that at all ... ...
But good.
I'll do everything possible so that at least you don't go to Orochimaru.
I attack, rush towards you.
But now you're suddenly blocking my attacks.
What happened here ?!
Just a moment ago I was vastly superior to you and now you defend yourself with simple movements, Tai-Jutsu.
I get angry, I mustn't fail, I can't leave you and let you go.Relentlessly I keep attacking you, but you are superior to me.
I try shadow doubles, but to no avail.
You are just too strong.

I can't give up, can't fail.
You and I would never forgive myself for that.
I throw you on the rock face with my doppelgangers, I'm at the front and grabbed your feet.
As before, you use your Feruer hiding places, burn my doppelgangers to ashes.
The fire is hot, your chakra pulsates through it.
I am amazed and impressed, tell you too.
But you seem horrified, your eyes have a strange glow.
Didn't you expect that this technique would hurt me too?
You scream something ... ...
"It's too late Naruto !!!!"
You push me off the ledge, jump after it.
You grab me so that I fall head first towards the ground.
I hit it, I feel like my head is breaking to pieces.
You let go of me, crawl back a little.
I fall forward, I can't move anymore.
Am I dead ...?
Did you reach your goal ...?

I fall in the water, drift out on the lake.
I don't see anything anymore, I don't notice anything anymore.
But then I'm no longer in the valley, no longer on the lake.
It's dark here, the light bathes everything in a light red.
A voice, no, someone is yelling something at me.
I don't get it, just let it happen.
I am too weak to do anything ... ...
Suddenly I straighten myself up, see you standing in front of me.
And I hit you in the face
You bend over in pain, you back off far.
A force pushes through my body, I can feel it clearly.
Now you have a real problem.
I'm attacking, you can't see my movements even with the Sharingan.
I strike, smash you against a wall.
I beg you, don't defend yourself.
I have no control, I am afraid that otherwise I will hurt you badly.Please surrender and come with me.

You stand there, you call to me, you don't know yourself what has now ended with you.
I see the spots get bigger, they cover your pale skin and bathe it in a dark gray.
Your hair is also getting lighter and longer, your eyes are getting colder and black.
I have to stop you right now.
I'm running towards you, attacking you head-on.
I want to dig my claws into you, immobilize you.
You're grinning
You're grinning with that empty, malicious look in your eyes.
I strike, drag you with me for a long time, literally stop at the foot of one of the statues.
The dust settles and my eyes widen.
What's this?!
Something protrudes from your back ... ... ... a hand ?!
She saved you from further harm, hurls me at the other statue.
Now one more thing grows out of your back, it looks abnormal.
I look at you and I understand.
Now is the time to end it.
I form a turfgan, it's purple, by mixing the red and blue chakra.
Your chidori has a different color too, it looks gray.

Forgive me my friend ... ... ...
We'll split apart, our techniques will meet in the middle.
I think it will turn out bad ... ...
When such strong jutsus collide, we are bound to blow up.
In any case, we will get hurt.
I'm afraid... ...
I don't want you to die ... ...
But I can't go back either.
Then the Rasengan and the Chidori collide.
A strong wall of energy forms around both of us, enveloping us completely.
I don't know what it looks like from the outside, but I feel good here.
You catch me in the middle of the chest, it hurts incredibly.
I scratch your headband, it's deep and covers all the metal.
We float.
You are right in front of me, you look strange ... ...
My eyelids are heavy and want to close.I do not want... ...
I have to stay awake ... ... ...
I look you in the eye one more time.

Am I wrong...?
I can not help myself... ...
You look like this... ...
You look like you want to cry ... ...
As if streams of tears were about to break out of your eyes ... ...
And now I understand, I can interpret your gaze.
You want to cry but you can't.
You want to go back with me, but you can't.
You don't want to go to Orochimaru, but you can't go back.
You will go.
You will go, leave it all behind you.
No ... you are wrong ... ...
You can go back with me, together we can do it ... ...
Tsunade-Baa-chan can certainly rid you of the stains, make you look like you used to be.
Please don't go away ... ...
My eyes are closing, I'm too tired to stay awake.
I fall in the dark, your image is slowly disappearing.

Yes ... ... so it was ... ...
I couldn't save you, couldn't take you back with me ... ...
Stop...
I passed out ... ... you too ...?
Tormented I turn around, look next to me.
There is an empty bed.