know how to keep all of this under lock and key at all times.

The cool wind swept over her body, tugged playfully on her long black hair and let Kai's waistcoat wrap around his waist.
She was still unable to move, let alone answer, but when he took a step towards her, she was aware of the movement as if in a trance, she awoke from her stupor. Suddenly anger rose in her, mixed with her already heated mind and now fully focused on Kai.

Adrenaline shot through her veins and gave her a real ´energy boost´, so that she took a decisive step towards Kai and suddenly they were unintentionally close.
He frowned slightly, but Leylan just hissed: "I haven't lied and even if it's none of your business, you understand ?! What do you think who you are? The one with the immaculate vest? The faithful soul in the midst of depraved crooks ? "
Pure anger flickered in her eyes, making those black eyes flare ominously. With no reaction, Kai revealed what was going on inside him, he merely twisted his lips into an ironic grin and hissed: "If you haven't lied, why are you speaking so softly?So you don't want to admit it ... so so, then I'll just ´make it clear´ for you: You have neither been to your grandmother's in Sendai, nor have you wasted your time with harmless housework. Since that was a lie, I'm assuming the rest of the way ... so you met someone, didn't you?
And if not, then you have at least not spent these two and a half years safely in any village. ´City´, you sang that lately, didn't you? That's when I realized WHERE you spent your time. "

Satisfied, he looked at her angry face, she had averted her gaze and fixed a point in front of his feet. He was right and that fact made her even more angry, he still managed to see through her.
Her hands clenched into fists, she called to herself to be quiet; she wasn't going to let her anger escape.
"Congratulations Sherlock, you are still the only one who really doesn't let yourself be fooled. But what do you care? Where I spent the time, YOU shouldn't care much."
Now it was her turn to smile ironically, but she did not take her eyes off him, waited tense for a reaction. One gave a bitter laugh and rubbed his face. Only slowly did he lower his hand, only slowly his thoughts merged into complete sentences, his voice almost sluggish as he said: "And so it will stay forever, I will forever be the only one who can see through you, Leylan. Me think you owe it to me to tell the truth. "

He looked at her prompted. Leylan's anger flickered cold and merciless, the heat long gone.
"That we always have to have such deep conversations in the most inopportune places," she said scornfully. "You think I owe you something? Oh, I can already guess why, but be sure of one thing: If you want to discuss the question of guilt, we should start with you first.And don't think I would have deliberately lied to the others ... it had to be - they wouldn't have understood anything else. But you Kai, you know a lot about lies and deceit, maybe that is the reason why I willingly tell you the truth. It's true, I wasn't with my grandmother in Sendai, I was ... yes, where was I anyway? "
She took a step towards him so that he could feel her breath on his skin.
"I was in Moscow, Kai. Do you want to hear more?"

Her lips twisted in a mocking smile, she watched the change in Kai's expression, from indifferent to stunned. This only lasted for a few seconds, then it reverted to the familiar, unimpressed mask he tried so meticulously to maintain.
"That explains a lot ... well, your little 'vacation trip' wasn't too pleasant, was it?" He remarked smugly, his brow furrowed slightly.
They were still standing directly in front of each other, only a few centimeters between them. She smiled sarcastically, her eyes narrowed to narrow slits, and whispered: "No, not really ... so now you know it, the ´truth´, is that my ´guilt´ deleted?"
Although her voice was just so dripping with irony, Kai's look was serious and became even more serious when he replied: "We are never even, if that's what you mean. At some point it will break out of you and only THEN will I find out the real truth. We. We that's just the way they are, Leylan, people like us guard the truth like a treasure that they are not ready to sacrifice. "
He leaned forward slightly to increase the effect of his words, but her expression remained unmoved, only her eyes flickered restlessly.

"If that's what you say, then you should have an unimaginable wealth by now ... pretty stingy, don't you think? Don't think I'm like you, Kai. Don't even think about it!
I have often thought it, almost believed it.But there is one essential difference between us: I am nowhere near as adamant and bitter as you are - I will never be. Besides, I don't like the kind of ´game´ that you master so masterfully, I am not as unpredictable as you are. I do not impose my ´game rules´ on anyone. "
Her gaze was so intense that Kai thought he was burning. He knew what she was referring to, knew that every word she said was serious. This fact hit him as he would not have expected it, although he felt he was being treated unfairly by her, since he had only attuned his behavior to hers.
But he couldn't admit that their friendship hurt him so badly.

"Life is an interplay of reaction and subsequent reaction. Accordingly, one should always look for the origin of certain behavior in oneself first ... and yes, I am a rich man and do not intend to change this. Because the truth as well as the memories, are the only thing that belongs to me all alone. And let me tell you one thing: Your ´game´ is not so dissimilar to mine. The very fact that we both play a game that nobody knows about is probably our greatest commonality. See it at last, Leylan. "
His words echoed in her head like a thousand-year-old echo, the serene sound of his voice seemed almost disreputable in view of such essential words.

But in Leylan's years of pain the answer lay: "You forget that life is more than just a logical sequence of reactions, you forget that there are feelings. YOU determine the course of our life, the source of all origins. Just laugh at it, you will never be able to deny it. It is human, Kai, whatever you think about it. Perhaps I have taken the wrong path since my arrival, but this does not give you the right to make it even more difficult.And about 'my' game ... well, it is governed by just one rule: Either you are my friend ... or my enemy. But it takes a lifetime to understand yours. "
Her eyes were on him, her words were on him and all of a sudden she felt what it means to feel longing. She turned and turned to go, he didn't hold her back.
Then a surprised gasp escaped her: Dranzer again drew a deep track in the sand, let it rise like a fountain, only just missing Leylan's toe.
She turned, her heart pounding. Kai hadn't moved, his hands buried in his trouser pockets, he raised his head, looked at the sky and said: "You always liked to make things easy for yourself and you always made decisions on your own ... that's what urged me the question: Where do you get this right from?
Maybe we both have a problem with this 'self-claiming right' and neither of us know where the limit is. “Crimson meets Night Black.” Maybe it's just too late for change, maybe that's what many are trying with all their might to suppress. But they are not alone these days; Millions of people walk day in day in their world dominated by illusions and close themselves to reality ...
Oh yes, what I wanted to say to you: Don't underestimate her, Eve is smarter than you think. "
With these words he turned around, followed by Dranzer and stepped into the dark shadows of the forest to test his strength on other trees.
~

She didn't know how she had made it this far, didn't know which part of her brain was still hopelessly overwhelmed. Leylan lay on her wide bed, still fully dressed, staring at the ceiling, eyes wide open, yet she was in the deepest darkness.
The face was like an indifferent mask, rigid, lifeless.What happened behind the physical, however, remained hidden from the naked eye.
She lay still and rigid, deep in thought.

> No, I'm not like you, Kai. At least not like the quay you claim to be. Your game is unfair, hurtful, and of one-sided benefit ... I don't like that. To make someone so insecure, to push them out into the cold, to let the heat taste at times and then to punish them with icy ignorance. You could have said it. You could have told me that you don't want friendship with me, that you don't love me and that you don't see me as a friend either. You could have just said something, and thus saved Kai and me from wandering around in the eternal ice. <

Without her being able to stop it, hot tears welled out of the corners of her eyes and sank into the flood of black hair that lay around her head like a wreath and gently snuggled into the crook of her neck. Leylan was puzzled by Kai's words, though she was sure he disapproved of her move towards friendship.

"You have always liked to make things easy for yourself and have always made decisions on your own ... then the question arises to me: Where do you get this right from?"

Yes, she had made this decision on her own, but only because he made no move to create a clear picture.
> In contrast to you, I don't want a ´blending state´, I hate this back and forth. Either or, Kai - there is no in between. Friendship is the neutral form of love, it is simpler and less problematic ... although it lacks this unique magic. What do you want, Kai? Shall we hate each other? Should we keep silent because we cannot forgive one another? <
Angrily, she hit the bedspread with her fists.
"What is it you want, damn it! Even if we are similar to what you say, at least I am ready to forgive ... ready to end the silence."Her voice, which was loud at first, became