confession

You once said:
"I'll never leave you."
Empty words because
you left me out in the rain
Until just gone without
to look back, to look to me
started your life all over again.
But the worst part of it all was
you did it secretly
it only became clear to me late
but you never said a word about it
no hints, no anger,
you went away
to this brood.
These people,
who drilled you from now on
and wish the plague on your neck,
how could you do that
give your life for something
without thinking
do you think i will forgive you

Of course I will forgive
because I love you,
I never intended to initiate anyone
do you know that i saw it as a secret
Of course I didn't know that a few weeks later
everyone would know what happened.
You left for good
left letters to relatives,
and now it's all gone
my love, my hate and my understanding,
'Cause you took all these things in your grave
And what else did you take with you? A confession.
The confession that you loved our country more and more
than me, your children or the others,
almost died of it.
Now I'm standing in front of your grave
with lettering of honor,
and see the children play
and feel a cold breeze
Thunderstorms begin, we're leaving.

Against you have protected your country, more than your family.