After all

The afternoon sun had a hard time caressing my face through the dense treetops as I lay in the lush green grass and looked at the ladybug on my finger. Idiotly, I was actually tempted to count the dots on his red back. "Thirteen," came the sober of me in the end. After a questioning look Lelouch threw at me, I explained the whole thing to him, even though I felt stupid. Maybe I just believed we needed some luck. "It doesn't look like you at all," was the only answer I got. Didn't he have anything to say about our ladybug having thirteen points? It made me unhappy to wonder why on earth a ladybug had thirteen spots and I find it. There were sure to be hundreds of his kind in the area. I sighed. "I know, Lelouch, I was curious and now regret it," I replied quietly and set the animal back on the grass. Didn't fate hold a time of happiness in store for us?
I risked a furtive glance at the tall young man who had led our horse to the stream so it could drink. I listened in silence to the splashing of the water, while I couldn't help but look at him. The moment I finally came to my senses, I quickly averted my eyes and looked at my flushed face in the water. Thus, for the time being, there was silence in this section of the forest. But at some point I heard Lelouch's voice behind me, but I just let him stare at my back.
"How long has it been now, C.C.?" He asked me suddenly, sounding rather wistful. I wasn't particularly surprised at the question. So far he hadn't really said anything and seemed rather absent when he had brought us a long way in the carriage. So it's no wonder that he no longer had any sense of time.
"Ten days ago I picked you up from the cemetery after you told me by phone that you were still alive," I said and closed my eyes for a moment.I vividly remember that night when I walked there to see him, completely distraught. Immortality. “By the time you made the pact with Suzaku, did you already know you weren't really going to die?” I wanted to be clear about whether it was just another game, another performance. Somehow I sensed a pair of purple eyes looking at me. Unemotional, as if it doesn't really matter to him.
"It doesn't really matter anymore whether I tell you or not. No, I wasn't aware of it. I pulled it off without the assurance that there would be a tomorrow for me. And as you can see, I'm only one I came back to me a day later and found out that I had many more years to go. "
"Aha ..." I ran a hand through my hair and was somehow happy. So I wasn't worried about him for nothing. Embarrassed, I remembered the tears that had slipped down my cheeks. Oh Lelouch ... He was a special man, extraordinary and unique to me. I have never been able to make the acquaintance of a man like that. I glanced back at him briefly, where he looked at me a little indignantly. "That didn't sound convincing, though. As if you don't care whether I'm dead or alive," he muttered. I had to laugh when he raised an eyebrow in anticipation. "What do you expect from me, Lelouch Lamperouge? After all, I'm still C.C., if you can't stand that, you have to stay away from me." Strangely, I waited for his smile that finally came. A tender smile that was worth kneeling down in front of him played around his lips and he ran his hair casually through his hair.
"That's probably true, I think I can forgive you again. But CC, why don't you say openly what you really think of me? But don't say anything bad that could break my heart, yes?" he just remained unmoved and looked deep into my eyes.I was still able to escape this sight.
"Tz ... I didn't think you'd waste your time on it. To be honest, I'm surprised that you obviously can't see through me, but you're supposed to be so smart," I sneered and held my hand briefly in it Water before I got up and shook the water off my hand.
"Well, normal people are an open book to me, but you old hag are not that easy to read after all. I'm just amazed that you didn't leave me behind and instead ran straight to me as soon as I called you, "remarked the black-haired man, whereupon I was hit with something. Was that how it was? Unable to recall my feelings at this point in time, I wonder if it really had made the impression on him that a world would have ended for me if he had actually left this world and me on top of that.
"Who knows? We're still comrades, aren't we? We have a contract after all," I mumbled thoughtfully to myself, regardless of whether he heard it or not.
"That old lyre again, C.C.? You are hopefully aware that now in my condition I can no longer fulfill your wish."
"Absolutely. I just think that an eternal life with you by your side is no longer so lonely and depressing ..." I was shocked to see how my voice got lower and lower until it was only a purr. Irritated, I grabbed my stomach, which was convulsing a little.
"Oh? A declaration of love? Flattering." I heard Lelouch give a soft laugh of amusement. Was that so absurd? Sooner or later he would notice that we only have each other and that forever. Nobody could understand us better than ourselves. He and I were unable to lead normal people's lives and have normal relationships."Don't be silly, why should I feel anything for you?" I asked tonelessly, actually trying to sneak at him. But now these words, the words that the normal C.C. and not a woman who was in love and shot. Well, maybe it was better that way.
"Good looks, charm and intelligence. These are keywords that could be used to describe me, don't you think?" What about selfishness and arrogance? I closed my eyes for a while and considered my next step.
"How nice that you can now live out your vanity again without prejudice, Lelouch," came coolly from me and walked past him with my head held high. "You forget your current situation, don't you? You are no longer the clever student Lelouch, you are no longer Zero and also no longer the head of Britannia. All you have left are the scraps of a child on the street."
"And you."
"Yes, and surprisingly myself," I inevitably reinforced his two words. What he said really made me happy. Somehow he had said it warmly, as he had called my name then. I wanted to turn around to him, but suddenly he had his arms around me and his head was on my shoulder. “Could you call me by my name again, please?” And he called it and it made my heart beat faster, which I wasn't expecting. I glanced at him in disbelief, then scoffed at him for acting like a guy in love.
"You're no better," he muttered, hugging me tightly. “In the past few minutes you've told me a lot about yourself.” I sighed softly. So somehow he had seen through that I wanted to play as usual on purpose. A little annoyed, I bit my lip. His body was so warm, but I almost pushed him away from me as a reflex. However, he hadn't allowed it and actually gave me a hickey.I stared at him in amazement until I got used to his presence. Our time together made both of us body rigid. There was no other way I could explain why he didn't want to break the hug. At the time, I hadn't even noticed how all the problems and secrets we shared had welded us together.
"Lelouch ... would you laugh if I tell you what I think of you?" I asked, shyly, and looked at the floor, blushing. "Sure, if it's something embarrassing," he replied with a grin and finally let me go. Ashamed, I hid my red head under my hands as best I could. "Why did I expect something else?" I asked myself quietly and glared at him. What about him? His behavior was also a good reason to make fun of him. Lelouch was being ridiculous, but I don't suspect he was deliberately making me look like an idiot. Perhaps some time will have to pass before we can deal openly with one another.
"Come on, ..." he said my name again. But it didn't sound as loving as before. So he fell back into his old pattern, making it too strenuous for him to say my name. I paused for a moment and waited until my head had changed color, then I climbed onto the back of the carriage.