yesterday caught up with me again. These signs were clear to me again. Was the dream one too? Could it be that she was waiting?
I planned to find out exactly that today. The only question was where? What person wouldn't think I'm crazy?
Naturally. I had a brainstorm. The woman I bumped into yesterday. I jumped up and just quickly picked up a bun and started looking for it around town. I must have been very lucky to find her again. But at least I was unlucky enough. I decided to search the right side of my apartment first."You shouldn't go long there if you should look for me."
In a flash I turned around and found the woman I was looking for in front of me.
"How?"
"It's a gift. Let's go a little, I'll answer your questions."
"Basically there is only one. Do you think people can live and wait even though they're dead?"
Slowly I believed that it was possible. Everything that I have experienced recently speaks for it. Even the Rasbon had suggested it, even if he was not convinced of it himself. He must have been thinking too rationally.
"Yes, that is indeed possible. But these people do not calm down when they are waiting for someone. Like their friend for you. You cannot run away from that either, you have to face it. You have to make a decision and this one Tell the person. If you want them to let you, you have to tell them. I have other things to do now, but you said yes it was just that question. "
She left me, just went in a different direction. But I really only had this one question.
Lost in thought, I walked through the city until dusk. The rational side in me tried again and again to make it clear to me how insane all these thoughts would be, that they could still be here. The other side, however, made me realize how much I needed her, how much I missed her too. How much I still loved her.
I had reached a bridge, put my arms on the railing and looked into the sunset. I had always done that with Leyla before, I'd like to do it again. Together with our child. We wished so much that it would be a girl. Maybe it was.
You've been almost two years now. I sighed. The sun was completely gone now. It was just me, my thoughts, the bridge and the empty street below.
"I need you here."
"Leyla. I need you too."
I was now sure that she was waiting for me. Sure she was there. I looked over the railing. Yes, if I jumped down there I would be dead for sure. Dead, but by the love of my life.
The rational side in me was silent now, something else that gave me certainty that it was the right thing to do.
I slowly climbed over the parapet and now stood on the other side. I still held on with my trembling hands. But this time they trembled with joy.
"I'll be with you in a moment."
With the words I jumped. The fall gave me one last adrenaline rush, which ended very abruptly.
I hoped to be able to hug my loved one immediately after the impact. To hug her again, to kiss her. But I only heard my neck break, then it quickly turned black. No light, no leyla. And all I heard and will always hear was silence.