I love you ~

i try to walk
i try to breath
to ignore the feelings
but they are too strong
helpless i lie here
tears in my eyes

no sign, nothing left
but pictures
they keep my heart beating
beating for you

embers in my heart
so strong, so hot
but i won´t feel
i want to feel the cold
to feel nothing
so nobody can hurt me

desperation on one hand
i want to laugh, but cry too
complicated to stand against
to hide it away
hard not to think of you

i feel the pain in my veins
the fear i could loose you
i miss those words
which gave me safety
which made me feel alive

I'm lost in a world
where all feelings collide
love and hate
a laugh and a cry
i try to burry emotions
but they hit me even harder
after a time

i just can wait
for the words
only you can say those words
to make me feel alive
but you can hurt me so much
only if you want to
but i love you