Haunted

I am writing this OS because I have a little blockage in 'Lost in memories' and so that I can loosen up a bit, I have to let off steam here ^^
The song I heard about it is called 'Haunted' and is by Taylor Swift -> Here is the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch? v = 6r87BSejdBU

Freezing. Dark. Where am I? was my first thought. My eyes stayed closed, but I was conscious. I could feel the tears forming in my eyes and making their way down my cheeks. A heavy burden lay on my chest, the sobs left my lips in rows. The pain ran through my body, but most of it was deep in my heart. It was just a dream! Why was I crying? Or was that the bleak reality? This bittersweet love robbed me of the last nerve. More and more tears ran down my cheeks. I couldn't stop her, nor was I going to! I had felt this urge to cry so often and for so long, but I always had the feeling that I had forgotten it. Slowly and weakly I dragged my arm up, whereupon I gently wiped my cheek with my fingertips and imagined how he would seal my tears with his kisses. A pleasant shiver ran through my body and a tingling sensation settled on my skin under the gentle touch. But with a single thought, the idea felt like scorching fire. I quickly withdrew my hand, threw it desperately against the icy cold wall and had to realize with a shrill scream that it was my own and not his. I woke up from the stabbing pain and let my eyes wander around the room. Not much could be seen because everything was darkened. Not a single ray of light shone into the room. When I realized how much my chest hurt, the veil of tears returned and took away my vision. It was just a dream, wasn't it?

Warm light fell on me. Autumn fell and let gentle gusts of wind rustle through the golden leaves of the tall, strong trees. A rustle broke the silence and merged with the heartbeat in my temples and my breath into a lively melody - that of my life. I tightened my jacket, not because it was cold. The reason for this was that I had an uncomfortable, queasy feeling in my stomach. I floated lightly over the street covered with orange leaves and looked dreamily at the blue sky, adorned with white clouds like cotton wool. I didn't want to paint the devil on the wall and made myself enjoy autumn. I sat down on a somewhat rotten bench and my soul mirror looked at the vastness of the world. Mountains in the background, the peaks proud, towered above the clouds.The bright green meadow formed a coordinated contrast to the blue shimmer and harmonized with an impressive spectacle of calm nature. From the intoxicating picture that presented itself to me, I relaxed and forgot my worries about which I had racked my mind so much. However, this state did not last long and inside everything I had ever built broke up. My attention was only onhim. His emerald green eyes were not on me, no ... His loving gaze was only for one person. She was the complete opposite of me. Her face was framed by dyed blond hair and her blue eyes, which were rimmed with black, looked at me with sneering mockery. She was a bitch! How could he bother with someone like that? I only noticed the rush of blood, couldn't hear his wonderful laugh. It just hurt and stabbed my heart like tiny needles. I didn't want to see any of this. I didn't want to see how he was holding her hand. I didn't want to hear how he called her 'honey'. I didn't want to feel how happy he was. It was a curse for me because how much would I have swapped with her? I lay awake for nights waiting for him to reply to my text message. We talked on the phone day after day and he also gave me hope to break my heart in the end. I just wanted to leave, but my body felt lifeless. My mouth was tightly closed and wouldn't open a single millimeter. How could I lose myself to a guy like that who lied to me from head to toe?

The memories collapsed on me, causing stabbing pain. Not just in my temples, but also in my chest. Every breath burned my throat and required the utmost concentration not to sob loudly. The tears still kept rolling, however, and the longer I cried, the worse the pain got. I pressed my trembling hand to my lips, which were dry and torn. It took me forever to calm down and sit up to take my phone off the table. I wanted to read through all of the text messages, those lies he'd written to me. How could I take every word from him? With one the tears of pain formed again and the whole world stood still for me. Every single word was like poison for my body, but I had to consume it as if I was short of breath and took in this clear, pure air. These letters that made up those wonderful words were vital to me. They closed my infinitely deep wounds from which all happiness oozed.My dream woman talks to me every day and she always notices when something is wrong. I thank her for that! In the corner of my eye a salty drop of sadness formed, only to pass again.Slowly and almost deliberately it ran down my cheek and found its place at my open lips, where it left a slight burning sensation and locked my sobs back into my body. The last text message, which I saw for the very first time, finally broke my calm and I couldn't help but cry. I read it through several times and in every word I could feel his breath as he breathed it into my ear. The burden dissolved, whereby my chest rose and fell again without complaint, every breath was recognizable even in the dark and all lost happiness returned to me. My whole existence was now filled with it and had reasons to be intoxicated forever.[i]Dream woman ... I was not born to wait, but with you I know that I can muster this strength. I want to be with you when you need closeness and offer you a shoulder to lean on, even if it's narrow. I want to be 'THE' who makes you laugh when you feel empty! Just say 'yes' and let's try, maybe it's forever. Maybe we weren't made for each other either, but I'll fight for you!

Was that just a dream?

Here it is already over and I would be really happy about criticism ^^
I hope that this text touched you!
Since I also woke up crying on Saturday, also because of a dream, I couldn't get rid of this feeling and I just had to write an OS!
Then this wonderful song * - *

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Liz *