Chapter: Alone

Shadows of the Past - You don't forget them

Hi!
I'm still there too. Some of you may still know me. It's been a long time since I heard from me, but my last FF didn't go down that well here. I've definitely started a new one. Maybe you like it.

Chapter 1: Alone

Rain.
The young woman looked gloomily out of the window and watched how the individual drops hit against it and then slowly moved their tracks towards the window sill. Outside it was slowly getting dark and one would surely be able to see the moon if the sky were not covered by this black, impenetrable cloud cover.
She hated the rain, but it reflected her bleak and gloomy interior. She hadn't felt like laughing and being happy for a long time. And that since then. Since then, when people she loved and trusted had hurt her as deeply as one can hurt a person. It had been the most terrible day of her life and since then she just felt totally empty, betrayed and lonely.Individual tears found their way down her cheeks and left strands of her orange hair stuck to her face. It was two years ago now, and yet she still felt the sadness, but also anger, rise up when she thought back on it.
She energetically wiped away the tears, she didn't want to cry anymore, she was sick of it, but she couldn't. The wound that had once been inflicted on her by the people she had called her best friends up to this point was too deep.
A hand came to rest on her shoulder and pulled her out of her gloomy thoughts. Startled, she turned around and saw a slightly older lady who looked at her worriedly.
"Child, it doesn't do any good if you cry about your past. What happened is done, over. You can't change it anymore and you have to be able to forget. You'd better laugh again. That suits you much better. Jamie." is already worried about you. "The woman now ran both hands over her cheeks to wipe away the traces of tears. "After all, you're getting married in four weeks and you don't want to show up with such tearful eyes?"
Tense, she tried to force a smile on her face, which she managed halfway. "I know and I'll try." "Well, yes. I just came here to wish you good night. So sleep well." "You too. And thank you, Maria."
Maria, who was already on her way to the door, turned around again and smiled. "Oh Nami, you shouldn't always call me by my first name. Just tell me mom, after all, I'll be your mother-in-law soon." Nami looked after her and then went to her bed, on which she simply let herself fall.
She had to be able to forget what that sounded like. Nobody understood them. She couldn't forget the whole thing. She wanted to, but she just couldn't.The pictures were always there, she just had to close her eyes. Even at night in their dreams, they did not leave her alone. She remembered the day it all happened too well. She remembered every little detail, even every single word that was spoken and which had cut deeper and deeper into her heart.
Crouched, she turned on her side and clenched her hands on her pillow. Wet spots formed on it, from the new tears that had collected in her eyes ran down her nose and then fell down onto the white fabric.
It wasn't just the words that hurt her so much back then, but also the person who said those words, the person who had really loved her and who she believed she would love too. But it was all just a dirty lie! Everything! Every single word he had whispered tenderly in her ear in her two hours together, and every single one of his tender touches, which always gave her a feeling of closeness and affection, a feeling of being loved.Faint sobs escaped Nami's throat and the tears flowed incessantly. Yeah, she really loved that damn bastard with all her heart, but he'd only hurt her. Pain that almost broke her heart. But she hated him now, him and "his" friends, who had just left her alone and in the lurch, did not care in the least how things should go on with her and what would become of her. She hated them, hated them all 5!
But even if she didn't want to admit it, there was still a small point deep in her heart that screamed out loud: "Zorro, I love you! Come back to me!"
In the meantime night had completely fallen and Nami felt the tiredness rise inside her. Her strength to cry slowly diminished and even before the last tears had subsided, she fell as always into a very restless sleep.

~ FLASHBACK ~

"Zorro, where are we here? And above all, what do we want here?"Nami stared at Zorro's back, who walked in front of her in quick steps and led her further and further into the interior of the island where they had anchored.
"Hey, I asked you something. Would you maybe give me an answer?" But she got none. Stubbornly, without making a sound, Zorro walked on. It was getting too colorful for Nami. Had the guy forgotten how to speak or what? She tried to catch up with him, but his steps were a little too fast for her, so that she was slowly not keeping up. Where did Zorro want to go with her? Maybe be alone? But he could say that. He didn't have to act so mysteriously.
The two had already run quite far into the forest when Zorro suddenly stopped. Nami, who hadn't expected it, almost ran on him.
“What do we want here?” She looked around questioningly. Everywhere only trees and bushes and further back you could see red roofs shining through.Probably a village. But otherwise there was nothing special here.
She looked again at Zorro, who was still standing in front of her without moving. Slowly she walked around him to finally look him in the face.
Zorro's head was bowed and there was an expression in his eyes that she couldn't read. Nami got a bad feeling. Something was wrong here. “Hey, are you all right?” When Zorro didn't answer her again, that reinforced her suspicion. There was definitely something wrong here. But what did he have? Why didn't he say anything? Carefully she reached out her hand and wanted to touch his face, but with a jerk he pushed her away. Startled by this reaction, Nami took a step back.
Now Zorro lifted his head again and the look that met Nami made her blood freeze in her veins, it was so freezing cold.
"Get out of here." Zorro's voice was soft and yet it sounded clear to Nami through the silence around her.“What ... what's going on?” “I said, get out of here.” His voice became more threatening, but his tone was still calm.
Only now did Nami really realize what he had actually said. "But ... but why? Did I do something?" She searched his gaze again, but he was still just as cold as before. Any warmth that she had always seen in it when she was alone with him had disappeared and she was sprayed with pure hatred. Fear crept up inside her and she felt her eyes start to burn.
"You want to know why ?! Are you so stupid ?! Can't you guess that yourself ?! We don't feel like you anymore !!! That's it! You hang out with us! We always have to get out help the bug and die yourself almost every time, just because you are not able to save your ass yourself !! That’s enough for us! Whoever wants to be a pirate has to be able to defend himself and not always crawl somewhere and wait until someone finally comes and saves you !!As a pirate you have to be able to fight yourself! But you can't do that !! The only thing you can do is scream for help !! You're good at that and that's really the only thing !! We're sick of it !! From now on you are no longer part of our team !! "Zorro had got louder and louder while he was speaking and finally screamed.
"But .... but .... you don't mean that seriously ..... you can't be serious." Nami's voice trembled and her face was wet with the tears that she had from every single word from Zorro had risen more and more in the eyes. She couldn't believe what she was hearing.
"And if I'm serious! Do you think I'm kidding ?! Look at you! You're screaming again!" "But ... but ... I thought ... you ... ..you love me? "" I love you ?! Do I look like that ?! You were just a nice change until we finally got rid of you! What do I want with you ?! Leg, unnecessary burden that we don't need!And now I'll say it for the last time: FINALLY DISAPPEAR !! There's a village over there, you can go there! Be glad that we are at least as nice to you and drop you off on an inhabited island! We could have just thrown you into the sea! "And with that he turned around and went back to the Flying Lamb without saying another word.
Nami wanted to go after him, but her legs didn't move a bit. Her voice also failed and so she broke down crying. Zorro's words had torn deep wounds in her heart. She still didn't want to admit what had just happened. He had just lied to her all along! Had played with her feelings! And you? She loved him after all, needed him, needed her friends!
Nami's fingers dug into the earth and her tears dripped onto them. It was all just a bad dream. After all, they were her friends, her best and only. Why should she suddenly be a block on their legs?They had never said anything, besides, Luffy WANTED them on the team. And now so suddenly she was annoying to you? Just because? Why? Why did they do such a painful thing to her? None of that made any sense!
"Zorro ..... why? I love you." No sound, except sobs, escaped her throat, she could only move her lips. All the pain she had endured the last few seconds released itself in her crying spasm. She didn't just cry anymore, she almost screamed, screamed everything out of herself until she had no more strength. She still noticed how dizzy she was, then suddenly everything was black and she sank into a deep hole, a hole full of loneliness.

~ FLASHBACK END ~

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