second face

Huhu here I am again ...

Mizu ... no, there are 4 chapters not just three ... I had thought about them, probably. to summarize in one ... but that would be somehow stupid ... so here comes the second ^^
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It is hard to life ... in this world ... but do not give up and trust in yourself.

I am often in a bad mood ... some in the chat said that I should rather call myself Emo. I didn't quite understand this, but then I learned that emos are people who are always in a bad mood. I seriously thought about whether I am or was like that ... but I came to the conclusion ... that I am neither of them, I am neither always in a bad mood ... nor am I always in a good mood ... but what am I then?
I don't think we should pigeonhole people in so many small boxes and judge them only for ourselves ...

…Happiness…
... joking ...
…a smile in the face…
this is the second….the second face ...

Even just a mask? I only know that this is always the case when I meet acquaintances or speak to people. False or true? Is that smile sincere or not ... it depends on the situation.
Some days it is honest and some days it is not. But from time to time I have the feeling ... that this happiness and everything around it is just a pretend is also a facade ...

But what does this mean? Also protection like the first one ... or something else?

I would say partly it is protection and partly a mask, which prevents the others from seeing the real me ... wait ... this also falls under protection ... crap ... well, in any case, you do not recognize the real me ...

don't see the uncertainty ... which holds me prisoner ...
... my feelings are therefore unreachable ...
keep them under lock and key in front of their eyes ...

Is it good like that? Is it good to make people believe that they know you even though they don't in the least?When they are suddenly confronted with our real self ...

... do they like you then ...
…or…
... she'll even turn away ...
... and reject us? ...

Whatever happens…

WE should respect every human being as HE is ... with his very personal deficits and habits ...