Chapter: I suffer from a broken heart

I slept very restlessly for the next few days. Hermione kept appearing in my dreams and weeping bitter tears for her parents. I just stood there and wanted to help her, but something wouldn't let me see her. Startled, I wake up from my dream and look around sleepily. Everything around me is silent and dark. Tired as I am, I turn around and try to fall asleep again.

I finally wake up in the morning and Hedwig is sitting excitedly on my bed. She has a letter in her beak. I stroke her gently and finally read the letter, which unfortunately comes from Sirius. Actually, I was hoping that Hermione might answer.

Dear harry,

You can't imagine what happened. Hermione was attacked again in the hospital and was badly wounded. They put her in a kind of eternal sleep and hope that she will be strong enough to survive. Harry, it doesn't look good, and Remus and Tonks are very concerned. I know you love Hermione and would like to see her, but I ask you not to. The sight of her isn't the most beautiful and it would break your heart. I included a packet of cigarettes with you because I strongly believe you will need them.

All love and good

Sirius

I put the letter aside and go down to breakfast, where Ron was waiting for me. I sit down next to him and tell him and Ginny too what happened. Ron was furious and Ginny started to cry softly. The other students also looked at us with concern. Only a few laughed exuberantly and were happy. Including Malfoy that ass. I could punch him straight for his stupid face. However, I decided not to do this because Snape was on his way.

Well, I have it again right now. I could throw up, he'll probably make fun of me again and still enjoy it. Pissed off by my situation, I go to class so as not to give Snape a reason to start pounding right away. I take my seat and start brewing my magic potion. Of course, like yesterday, it will turn green instead of blue and Snape scowls at me and starts right away.

"Mr. Potter are you that stupid or are you just pretending? I have seldom seen a student act like you. Rest assured, however, that your father was a zero in Potions too."

I jump up and sniff at Snape and leave the classroom to prevent worse. In a closed corner I light a cigarette and try to calm down. The smoke rises up my nose and tickles, I have to sneeze.

"Health," someone says.

Startled, I turn around and discover Luna. She looks at me and asks if I might give her a cigarette. Nice as I am, I give her one and we smoke together. Luna keeps looking at me and shaking her head, I wonder why she's doing this and what it's all about.She smiles and suddenly says that I love her. How the hell did she find out? Yes, nod silently and my heart hurts terribly. How nice it would be if Hermione sat there now instead of Luna. Logically I like Luna, she is always so refreshing and nice, but she is just not my mine and that hurts. The pain keeps getting worse and I feel dizzy. I see black threads in front of my eyes and then I see Hermione's fearful face staring at me. I'm falling into a deep black hole.

I open my eyes and then I see them blurred in front of me.

MY MINE

But I was wrong, it's only Luna, who kneels over me worried and asks me if it's going again. I get up again and tell her that I probably ate too little and smoked too much. Luna was unfortunately not satisfied with the answer and dragged me to Poppy in the hospital wing.

Poppy looks at me worriedly and examines me. Luna doesn't leave my side for a second and watch exactly what Poppy is doing. Finally she looks at me and weeps softly.

"Harry, you're heartbroken and you can't fix that," sobbed Poppy.

Luna stared first at me and then at Poppy. She was pissed off and confused.

"Really Poppy, a heart can't break, that's impossible," Luna shouted beside herself.

Poppy looked sadly at Luna and said that it was possible. She waved her wand and used it to open my chest to reveal my heart. I feel sick when I see it, broken, almost tattered, lying inside me and slowly beating.

"You can't do anything to Poppy?" Asks Luna, a little scared and disgusted.

Poppy shook her head and said that only someone who broke it can fix it. Well, I think to myself, it was just Hermione and unfortunately she is in the hospital and fighting for her life.

I see Luna crying and tears run down Poppy too. Please don't cry, I think to myself and try to stay strong, but at this moment my heart is cramping and I can feel someone trying to tear it out. Startled, I scream in pain and Poppy tries a pain potion. However, this does not help much, I feel how it tries to defend itself and continues to cramp. Poppy cries out in horror and weeps bitterly.

"If someone doesn't help him soon, Harry could die," Poppy says quietly.

Luna looks at Poppy in horror and then says that Hermione should come back as soon as possible to repair the damage. Hello, I'm not a car with an engine failure, I think to myself and try to get up, but it drives me around again. Poppy decided to get Dumbeldore and left Luna to take care of me so I wouldn't get up again.

Luna looks at me and says that I should be brave and not give up.Well that would be even nicer if I didn't give you the spoon now so nothing. I look at Luna and tell her not to worry, because I'm fine. Well that's actually a lie, but I don't want to worry you any more.

The door flies open and Dumbeldore storms in. He looks at me worried and asks who it was. I'm silent, I don't want everyone to know that I'm so worried about Mine that it almost kills me. Oh no, that is and will be my Butterbeer, I think to myself and leave her in uncertainty.

I get up and leave the hospital wing. I don't even hear what Dumbeldore is discussing with Poppy and Luna.

"If he is not helped soon, then he will die that much is certain," says Dumbeldore seriously.

"I know Albus, but who can help him, he doesn't tell us anything," says Poppy sadly.

"Hermione can help Harry," Luna stammered.

"Okay Luna, then you try to take care of Harry and we will help Hermione," says Dumbeldore firmly.