Chapter: Another attack

I sneak into the garden in the middle of the night and light a cigarette. Yes, I smoke one every now and then when I'm dirty, like right now.

I wonder whether my dream was a reality or whether it could become a reality. No, I don't even want to think about that. I'll talk to Dumbeldore tomorrow when he comes. Let's see what he says about it.

After putting out my cigarette, I go back to sleep. Tired, I lie down again and doze off. I see Hermione again in a dream, but this time I am not dead, but Pansy. I run up to her and keep shouting the words "No, not Pansy, not my dear Pansy".

I wake up frightened and wonder about my dream. I really dreamed that I love Pansy. So really this thought is absurd. My heart is aching again and I have the stupid feeling that Hermione knows where I am. Yes Hermione is cunning and smart, she can achieve anything if she wants. She can even make me a tailcoat for good.

The pain gets worse and try to ignore it, but unfortunately it is not that easy. I try to distract myself with reading and then it happens.

I turn ashen and pass over. I just lie there and think when it'll be over. Dear God, please let it be over, I beg, but apparently he doesn't hear my pleading. I only wake up when I hear my aunt's horrified scream. She bends over me worriedly and asks if I'm back in pain.

I nod silently and she gets me a consommé so that I can regain my strength. I sit down at the kitchen table and wait for Snape and Dumbeldore to finally arrive. A look at the clock tells me that it was just 8 o'clock.

Wait two more hours. I've only been waiting for almost a week. I munch on my breakfast and go outside. Just as I am about to light a cigarette, Dudley comes out and stares at me. I politely ask him what he's staring at me. He says that he doesn't know how to deal with me and my situation. Well act like you always do, I tell him.

We chat for a while, until Snape comes into the garden, gives me a letter and disappears again. I am about to open it when Dumbeldore comes to me. He looks concerned and I wonder why.

When he sees me, he tries to be calm, but he doesn't succeed. Completely disconcerted, he tells me that Hermione attacked Pansy because she thought she was my new friend. I stare at Dumbeldore and ask how Hermione thought of it.

Dumbeldore explains that Pansy wanted to find out certain things about Hermione and when my friend pretended to be to get Hermione out of her mind. Well, it didn't work out very well, I guess. I thank Dumbeldore and go upstairs to read the letter.Dear harry,

I hope You are fine. Well, I'm not doing very well because I was unfortunately taken to the hospital wing because of Hermione. Yes, she attacked me too, but luckily she didn't hurt too badly like you. I found something that may give you a little hope.

Here's what Hermione was pissed off when she found out I was your friend. She got upset and insulted me, well and then she put a curse on me. So much for the state of affairs and now to your question. No, Draco is not mad or anything he knows that I am texting and helping you. And he thinks it's good.

In love, your sweet one

Pansy

I have to smile about her goodbye and at the same time I like the way I notice. Should I be slowly but surely falling in love with Pansy? No that's absurd, my heart is still jumping at Hermione.

Hmmm, if I just read or hear her name, I'll be completely different. I lean back in my bed and let my thoughts run free.