Chapter: Love and its shady sides

Shadows of the Past - You don't forget them

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Chapter 8: Love and its shady sides

Nami, of course, had expected this question. But what should she answer him? Should she finally tell him the truth? No, she couldn't. He wouldn’t be too happy to respond. Not after lying to him all along. It would be best to keep silent about everything. Why should she tell him too? It was over anyway. She would most likely never see Zorro again. So there was no need to waste any more thought on him.
Nami got up from her bed and broke the rigid eye contact from him. "There was nothing between Zorro and me. He was a completely normal friend, you know that." "And why does this smoker make such hints?" "Because he enjoys it. Because he wants to annoy me. What do I know.And if there are rumors about me and Zorro, what the heck? There are a lot of rumors. Whether they are true is different. "" So there was really nothing between you two? "" No. I would have told you that. "In the meantime Nami had approached Jamie and was now looking him in the eye with her most faithful doggy look.
"Then I believe you too. Sorry, but this guy just confused me." "It's okay." Nami wanted to turn away from him when he grabbed her hands and held her. “There is something else I would like to ask you.” “What?” Nami became a little more insecure again. Had Smoker given something wrong? But apart from that there was actually nothing more ... right?
"In the car earlier. Was anything? You looked so strange?" "What?" Inwardly, Nami breathed a sigh of relief. It had nothing to do with Smoker, "No, everything was fine with me." "Really? You can tell me if something is. It has nothing to do with Janina?"Why? How did you get it? "" Because of your wedding night question. "" That ... that's bullshit. Why should I have anything about it? "" I just want to know. "Jamie sat down on Nami's bed, pulled her next to him and tried to catch her eyes with his, but Nami just looked at the floor in front of him.
"I can see that you've got something. And I think I know why." Jamie waited for Nami to give him an answer, but she stayed calm and just continued to stare at the floor in front of her. So he continued: "First you get a half panic attack because I ask you if you want to move in with me, then you react so strangely to this word and whenever I get closer to you, you avoid me. I have maybe done something to you that scared you off? "
Nami shook his head. This conversation made her feel uncomfortable, but she had to go through it now, willy-nilly. This time Jamie wouldn’t let himself get rid of so easily anymore, she was sure of that."N ... no, it's not up to you. It's just me." "Then tell me what you've got." "That's it, I can't, because I can't even do it myself knows. "That was a lie, but she couldn't tell him the truth. It was all complicated enough as it was. "There is something like a blockage in me. I am probably just afraid of getting hurt like that again if I let someone get too close to me." The first tears glittered in Nami's eyes again and Jamie pulled them gently in his arms. "But you don't need that. Nobody in this house will do such a thing to you. And certainly not I. You can trust me one hundred percent. I love you and nothing will change that." Yes, she had those words Heard it before and yet that person had hurt her so deeply. Still, she felt that she could believe Jamie. It was good to have someone to lean on. She felt comfortable in his arms.Maybe she should have let him get closer to her a lot sooner. Perhaps then this emptiness and loneliness would have disappeared in her much earlier. She didn't really love him, but it was good that he was there.
"And listen to Nami," Jamie's voice had softened and his mouth closer to her ear. A tingling sensation ran down her back and caused slight goose bumps. This situation seemed familiar to her. She had seen them before.
"I want to sleep with you."

At the same time in the living room:
Janina was still pouting on the sofa. Why did she only have to be so young? It was always said when she was older. That was unfair. She wasn't a little child anymore. She finally wanted to have a say when the big guys were talking. But no!
"Hey, what's the matter with you?" suddenly asked Jessica, who sat down next to her with Lynn.
"I think it's mean that nobody wants to tell me what happens on a wedding night."" Oh, come on, honey, it's not that bad either. At some point you will find out. "" I want to know now. Why does everyone always think I'm too young for that? "" Because you still are. Do you think Lynn and I used to feel better when Ben and Jamie always boasted about their knowledge of certain things and always said to us that we were still too young for that? We didn't think that was fair either. "Exactly and we survived it too." Lynn said to her youngest sister, who was not satisfied with that. "But that's not the same. You and Jamie are only 2 years apart. You learned everything he knew shortly afterwards. "" You think so. Most of what Jamie knew he got from Ben and believe me, men have their own imaginations that sometimes you shouldn't hear as a woman. And there were certain things that Mum and Dad wouldn't talk to us about today. " "What for example?"But Lynn just shook her head and nudged her little sister's nose with a grin.
"Oh man, you are really mean. Then I'll just go to Ben and Jamie and ask them." "You're unlucky too. Besides, Ben isn't there, but with his girlfriend, and Jamie with Nami. You should maybe not always bothering you. "" I don't care. I want to know now. "Pouting, Janina trudged out of the living room and towards the stairs. Her two sisters could only shake their heads at her. "She just doesn't want to get it." then said Jessica when she saw Janina going upstairs. Lynn agreed with her: "She's just damn curious. But it's not always easy as the smallest in the family. But now let's talk about a different topic. Tell me, did you notice that earlier about Nami? She's like that Made a quick exit, as if that had made her uncomfortable. "" Yes. And on the way home she was so quiet and funny too. Do you think she has what? "Jessica nodded. “Maybe there is still something from her past that she has kept from us so far.” “Yes, but why? She knows that she can tell us everything.” “What if we talk to her? from woman to woman. "" We can try.

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