Chapter: Northern Lights

I am back, my esteemed readers and friends.

Welcome to the 2nd 2nd chapter that starts after the 2nd end of the first chapter and tells how it could have happened, alias the beta version or chapter 2.2.1. Actually, I wanted to end Cold Sunshine with this chapter, but I realized that I had forgotten something. There is still another, a third and finally last possibility to design the 2nd chapter. Should I write it it would be called Sakura and I will write it when 8 people tell me to do it.

The links below link to pictures that I personally found very meaningful and impressive and that might help you to understand Yugi a little better in this chapter. I can really only advise everyone to look at the pictures first and then read them. (Unfortunately it no longer seems to work to link the images, so I recommend simply entering "northern lights" in the image search on Google to get illustrative material.As I said, I find it helpful!)

This chapter is dedicated to MadeInHell because I guess I did her a little injustice and she seems to be a really admirable person. I want to apologize to you.

Enough for the preface, now just read!

The sky seemed to be on fire. The firmament shimmered in bright colors and cast a brightly colored shimmer on the brilliant white of the snow. A broad band of blurring colors of uncanny beauty stretched across the sky in ever different, meandering lines and laid a delicate, pastel touch of color transparently over the golden glitter of the stars, which shone through the dark black of the night sky. The snow-covered pine tops reflected the colorful rays and perfected the spectacle of the snakes dancing in the sky to perfect beauty.

Far below this flame dance, which covered the sky with its splendor, lay the wide, snow-white plain, completely untouched and only interrupted by a small coniferous forest, there in perfect silence, as if the silence of nature wanted to pay homage to the fiery splendor of the sky.There was complete silence, not even the sounds of the nearby hotel penetrated the ceiling of silence that enveloped the landscape.

Yugi was absolutely alone out here in the arctic cold under a sky of breathtaking beauty.

His eyes were stripped of all shine, exhausted from the torments of the past few weeks.

It had been an incredibly stupid idea from his friends to send him here on vacation, of all places, so that he would forget his pain, when absolutely everything here reminded him of his loneliness. Especially when looking at this spectacle, only one thing haunted Yugi's head: Why are you not here?

Longing threatened to drown him, dragging him relentlessly into the depths of despair and pain from which he had long since given up. He had never wished for anything so much as now that breath would come back to him, close the wounds and give him a secure hold again, but he would not come, never again, he was dead and a large part of Yugis had died with him .A large piece of his bleeding heart had been torn out and breath had been given on his way into the realm of the dead, so that there was now an enormous hole in his chest, which always reminded him painfully of his loss. The wound had turned into a putrid ulcer, which now did everything to rot Yugi from the inside out and to decompose the last living tissue in him into musty putrefaction.

"I miss you so", Yugi whimpered weakly into the darkness of the polar night, "why are you not with me? I would give anything if you came back to me one more time, but you do not come back, am I right?" "

Tears ran down his cheeks, reddened by the cold, and coated his lips with that moist, salty taste to which he had become so used that he had been crying again and again for days. Everything about him hurt so badly, he felt weak and completely helpless, didn't know what to do.Again and again he was carried away by his feelings and carried down into endless depths and no matter how much he resisted and fought against it, in the end he could not do anything about it and so he surrendered to despair and grief for the most important things in his life and his own will to live died in Yugi.

He slowly sank to his knees, which immediately sank a few centimeters into the icy blanket of snow and were covered with a wet and cold layer. But who cares about the cold, this ridiculous -15 ° C couldn't keep up with the cold that had lodged inside Yugi's interior.

He was alone, so terribly alone and that would never change again, even if he were to fly back to Domino and meet his friends there again, he would still remain lonely, because nothing was comparable to the pleasant security he breathed together had lost.

Yugi had been happy, for the first time really happy, like never before, even if he had stood in Breath's shadow, it had been the best time of his life when his lover was still with him and it could never be that way again , never again would he be able to feel this wonderful feeling of lying in Breath's arms, it was over.He closed his eyes and tried to remember the warmth and security he had felt, all the good breath had brought him, how happy he had been. But as soon as he opened his eyes again, the beautiful feeling disappeared again in a torrent of loneliness and it hurt even worse than before. He would not be able to bear the longing for much longer, he would collapse under the agony, he knew that, but the only question was whether he would simply go insane or just die.

He wanted to die.

Just like breath. If he died like breath, he might or might not see him again, but even if he didn't see him again, everything would still come to an end and the suffering would be over for good. He would be able to feel peace, would no longer have to think, no longer have to feel. It would be over, finally over! He could simply sink into an eternal sleep here and now, from which he no longer had to wake up, as he had always wished.The thought was as sweet and tempting as nothing since breath was gone. Exactly, he would end it, rid himself of his suffering and no longer wait for someone else to do it for him or for it to happen by itself. It would end here and now.

Yugi let himself fall into the snow, which hugged him gently and welcomed him, and closed his eyes to finally fall asleep.

Yes he is dead / no they found him and saved him. Just choose it.

Oh yes, maybe who noticed it (which I don't believe)

I wish you were here tonight with me to see the northern lights

I wish you were here tonight with me

I wish I could have you by my side tonight when the sky is burning

I wish I could have you by my side

Cause I've been down and I've been crawling

Won't back down no more

(I love this song * languishing / melting *)