God give her wings ...

God give her wings!
And get her out of here.
And don't let them die of thirst
give her the strength she needs.
God give her wings!
And get her out of here.
She's already on the ground
give her the strength she needs.
(Rapeseed)

~ Tentens View ~

I stand here in front of the half-filled bathtub and watch indifferently as the ice-cold water flows into the tub. The warm wind of summer blows in through the window and faintly carries the scent of roses with it. When the water sloshes over the edge of the bathtub, I turn it off. Then, with a careful movement, I pull off the light pink satin nightgown I'm wearing. Hesitantly, I slide into the icy water. My brown hair, which falls open and unrestrained over my shoulders, surrounds me. My skin is unnaturally pale and I am trembling all over. But it regulates itself. The warm wind caresses my face and whispers softly in my ear: "He is with YOU" With an injured and yet empty look, my ice-cold hands encircle warm metal.I clutch it tightly. Warm blood flows over my hands. When I open my hand again, there are two deep cuts on the palm. The blood drips into the tub and begins to color the previously clear water red. Red with my blood Slowly, almost gently, I slide the razor blade over my right wrist. A stream of warm blood gushes out. I slide my arm back into the water and repeat the same thing for my other arm. Then I let myself slide back, exhausted but also relieved. It's over. I know that with absolute certainty. Slowly everything begins to blur before my eyes. With death before my eyes, I see your face one more time. You bend over me and keep calling my name. “Tenten!” Then I slide into a black hole that covers me like a thick blanket and suffocates all emotions.

~ Nejis View ~

She looks so vulnerable and sad as she lies there. I sit by Tenten's bed and watch her sleep.She is connected to devices next to her bed with lots of hoses. And I can only ask myself one thing at a time: why? Why did she do that? I still remember the relieved look with which she looked at me and all the blood that had poured out of her artery. And again I wonder why. It's like I'm going in circles. I don't know the answer to that question. A lonely tear runs down my cheek. "Why Tenten?"

~ Narrator's View ~

At that moment the door to the hospital room opened and a brown-haired girl carefully entered the room. "How is she?" She asked softly. Neji just stared at her tiredly and shrugged. “The doctors say they don't know if she'll get through. It's too early to say that.” She saw the deep pain in his eyes and hugged him. "I know how important it is to you. It was important to me too. Neji, why did she do that?" She whispered in his ear.He returned the hug. “I don't know, Yama.” Pain and sadness spoke in his voice. Yama could feel how he tried to hold back the tears. She didn't feel any better, either. Tenten was one of the most important people in her life and she didn't want to lose her. But she, too, wondered why Tenten had done that. For a long time Neji and Yama sat by Tenten's bed and thought without coming to a satisfactory answer, while the devices on their bed beeped constantly and monotonously. After three hours, Yama had to leave, Tsundade was waiting for her. She kissed Neji goodbye on the cheek and quietly left the room. Neji continued to stare darkly.

~ Nejis View ~

Now I am alone again. Yama has left and probably won't be back anytime soon. This beeping is annoying, but it also calms me down somehow, because at least I know that she is still alive. I want her to wake up again, want to see her bright brown eyes again and see how she smiles again.Suddenly a pang twitches through my heart. "But when was the last time she smiled?" Asks an evil voice in the back of my mind. Have I really only noticed it now? Tenten, how long have you not smiled? How long have you been on this self-destructive path? I'm slowly starting to tremble. The spring morning two months ago comes to mind.

~ Flashback ~

Neji was completely exhausted. He had pretended too much during training. Breathing heavily, he sat down under the blossoming cherry tree at the edge of the clearing. Tenten dropped into the grass next to him. "And? Done?" Neji just gave her a cold look. Tenten bowed his head and tore off a cherry blossom that lay beside her on the grass. Suddenly a bright voice sounded across the clearing. “Neji-kun! Tenten!” They both looked up. A pink-haired girl ran across the clearing. She stopped in front of Tenten and Neji. "Hello Yama", Tenten greeted her friend. Yama sat down next to the two of them.Tenten's gaze fell on Neji. And she froze. Neji looked dreamily at Yama. A slight smile lay on his lips. He had never looked at Tenten like that. A hurt look crept onto her face. Yama beamed a sweet smile at Neji. Tenten got up with a jerk. "I'm going," she said in a cold voice. Both nodded without looking at her. The brown-haired woman ran away with hasty steps. Neji thought he heard a faint sob, but he dismissed it as an illusion.

~ Flashback end ~

Neji smiled sadly. He knew for a long time that she had really cried then. But he couldn't really understand why. Carefully he took Tenten's cold hand and squeezed it gently. Then he got up and turned to go. "Stop by Tenten," he muttered softly into the room before closing the door behind him.

It didn't turn out so well. I'll try to try harder next time. Please, please leave me a picking point. Whether criticism or death threats, the main thing is a picking agent.Your bloody_sacrilege