One Shot No. 2 - 【ιη αηy σтнєя ℓιƒє, уσυ'яє мιηє ...】

You know what?
Back when we met? I remember it like it was yesterday. It was really pure coincidence that we both ran into each other. The carelessness of one and the thoughtfulness of the other made us collide. I was sixteen years old at the time and you were around twenty, maybe only nineteen. The beginning was more than difficult, we both know that, but there was nothing we could do about it. You spoke to me, asked me what I would do on the street late at night. I answered you very clumsily that it was none of your business, I can still remember that. I thought your speech was a pick-up, didn't want to get involved, because I'd experienced something like this a long time before ... but you had taken it completely wrong. Or I should have acted differently towards you. I knew you didn't mean it and I'm sorry that I reacted to you like this ... I thought you were one of those people who only wanted one thing ... but I was wrong about you. We talked briefly, but I had to go because I still had something to do ... Do you remember?

We met again, it was two years after the first meeting, I didn't recognize you. I had moved to another city, I could get by without my family, I had a job in a well-frequented restaurant where I only liked it more or less. It was a rainy day that drove you to that place. You sat down at the bar, right in front of me, in my area of ​​responsibility. The bar was empty except for a few drunken old men, there was no one else in the staff there, just me and the cook, who locked himself in his kitchen. Even from a little further away, I realized that I immediately felt sympathetic, so I did my duty, walked over to you and asked you what you would like to drink. It was a Coke that you ordered, I still know that today. You weren't one of those people who ordered a beer, an after-work beer or something, because you looked like you had a day of hard work behind you. Out of the corner of my eye I noticed a piece of equipment that you had placed next to you, I didn't know what exactly that was. It was also completely the same to me. I fulfilled your wish, brought you a glass of refreshing cola ...
You are probably wondering why I am writing all this to you. You will find out the reason later, you can be sure of that.
We started talking, but soon you had to leave. My shift was also coming to an end, but outside it was raining like buckets. I offered you to take my umbrella, which you could have given me back on occasion. I didn't care how I got home, wet or dry, I would have been the same. I didn't live far away anyway, it was a walk of maybe ten minutes. Thanks but you refused, do you remember that?You brought me home when my shift was over and my successor came over, we'd talked a little, even if it really wasn't much. You told me about your siblings that you looked after them and gave them money anonymously, you said you were a distant uncle who worried about his last relatives who had to grow up without parents. I found that so kind-hearted of you, you seemed so familiar to me, as if we were one soul, as if we were thinking the same thing, because I would certainly not have acted differently if I had had the same means. We said goodbye at my front door, you kissed my cheek goodbye, remember? Then you left without the umbrella I offered you ... From then on our romance began ...

You came back to the bar on the grounds that you had forgotten something. I didn't know what you meant, so I asked one of my co-workers who knew where the lost property was going. Today was my day off, which I really deserved. And lo and behold ... there was something in it. The equipment I noticed but ignored. I gave it back to you and we talked again ... walking the streets. Again you told me about your family, how touchingly you look after them and how you stand by them, you told me about the death of your parents and I felt sorry for you. Still, I had great respect and probably not only that. You told me not to think so much while you caressed my cheek and then it happened ... The first kiss, you hugged me in your strong arms, the radiated so much security and security that I immediately felt comfortable. The people around us were completely the same to me, only the moment with you interested me.
This is how our story began ...

From that day on we were inseparable, at least that's what I thought. Again two years have passed, we got married and just see what we have created out of our love. Look at our kids ... Minako and Minoru. Twins even ... We raised them, our own flesh and blood. We were fine for many years, but that was only the appearance. With every year I got worse, my bones got heavier, my limbs got numb, until finally I couldn't do anything anymore. I was struggling to do the housekeeping, to look after the children, while I had to watch how you stayed away longer and longer day after day, until you even disappeared for a few nights. You told me it was important that the office needed you, but my feminine instinct told me otherwise. I told a good friend of ours about it and without my having to ask her, she followed you, recognizing the reasons why you always stayed away for so long ...I didn't take it offense, I could understand it, my presence alone couldn't make you happy anymore. And when the doctor got the results, I also knew that we were going to go downhill. I had known from the beginning that something like this would happen, which is why the pain in my heart was not too strong. I just wanted you to be happy that you don't depend on me. I know that you love me, that you will always love me and will always take care of me. But I don't need someone to take care of me ... The only thing I need is you. You and your satisfaction, that's all I need. The weeks went by in which I felt worse and worse ... And I was only able to write these lines with the last of my strength. In the hospital I lie in this bed, just vegetating to myself and waiting for the redemption that should come soon. I feel it, my happiness has come true and I can already see a light on the horizon that tells me the time has come ...

Look around you again, look your children in the eyes ... in the tearful faces ... Hear their trembling voices that say their mommy is gone. Take her in your arms and comfort her, because I can no longer do it. I have neither the time nor the strength to do so. My body has been eaten away from the inside, salvation will soon come for me. I can already see in front of me how you come to my bed, take my hand and want to say a few words to me ... But I can't hear them. I know what you're going to say, I know you too well for that. Your words are in my mind, in my heart ... You say you will love me forever and never another. And you say that you only acted out of desperation, you didn't know what to do with your grief, so you sought protection from it with another woman. I cannot be angry with you, I could never be angry with you in my life. My love will remain forever, it will be in your heart for ever. From above I will look down on you and watch over you and our children, I will guard and protect you and the children, nothing and no evil may come to you ...

If you read this letter, then I am no longer ... I will then no longer dwell in this world, but am on the way to paradise, where I will lead a free, healthy life after death. I will wait for you there.
I will also wait to be allowed back to earth, to get another chance ... but you have to give me a second chance too.
Give us the chance to start a new beginning ...
Promise me that you will live this life that I am no longer in the way you want it ...
But in every further life ... please promise me ...
In every further life ... you are mine ...
Please ... promise me ...

My love will be for you and no one else for all eternity ... My soul mate ...~ Kaori Sabakuno.