Chapter: Done deal

So Hermione is supposed to be the problem, but I still love her.
How on earth am I supposed to avoid her? It's almost impossible and I don't want it either. I would rather die than give up.

Bored, I trudge through the corridors of the school and once again sneak into the library.
There I look for answers and maybe I will find a solution to my problem.
Of course I can't find a book about it and I can't go into the forbidden section without an invisibility cloak.
So I decide, even if it will probably be for nothing, to ask Snape if he knows something.
I slowly go down to the dungeons and knock on his door.

"Come in," he growls.

I slowly open the door and step inside.
Snape gives me a withering look and asks what I am doing here.
I explain my saturation to him and ask him if he can help me.
He scowls at me and asks why he should help me.

"Please Professor, if you don't do it for me, then do it for my mother," I beg him.

He looks at me and finally agrees not to be to blame if I die and he also didn't want Hermione to continue messing around and breaking hearts.
Together we make our way to the library.
However, we use a secret passage to avoid running into Hermione.
In the forbidden section, we immediately go looking for a book that could describe the situation.
We searched for hours until we finally found what we were looking for. Snape pulled a thick black book with red letters off the shelf and immediately started leafing through it.
Suddenly he winces and stares in Hermione's direction.
She stands there and makes a strange gesture and my eyes go black.

I fall to the floor and don't even notice how Professor Snape stands protectively in front of me and sternly begs Hermione to stop.
But she didn't listen to Snape and carried on.
I thought I was going to die right now, it hurt more than the times before.
I tried to protect myself and Snape also mumbled some protective spells, but unfortunately they were powerless.

It wasn't until Dumbeldore and Lupine rushed over that she let go of me.
Remus immediately took me to the hospital wing and Dumbeldore and Snape stay behind to make Hermione see her senses.

A little later they both came to me to let me know that I should tell Hermione what was going on.
How please should I go to her now and tell her that I love her.
Well either it falls around my neck or it kills me for good.

I nodded silently, thinking at the same time how and when to tell Hermione.
But I can't think of anything and that drives me crazy.

I sit on my bed and look sad.
On the one hand my heart screams for fulfillment, on the other hand it screams in pain.Yes, it hurts again and again.
It just doesn't stop anymore.
Eaten by pain, I try to pull myself together but I don't succeed.
Again and again I fall into deep self-pity.
I can't help Hermione's situation either.

Why does she only blame me for the death of her parents?

If only I had been there, then I would have been able to help and would not have a broken heart now. I carefully hold my hand in front of my chest and notice a sticky liquid on my hand. Startled, I pull my hand back and look at it.
I see blood, my whole shirt is smeared with blood. I frantically run into the bathroom and try to wipe it off, but it just doesn't stop bleeding. I decide to go to Poppy.
She knows what to do and what not to do.
I try to walk faster, but the loss of blood makes me weak and so I more or less drag myself through the corridors of the school.

Just before I finally get to the hospital wing, I run into Malfoy and give me a sneering grin.
I want to tell him to piss off, but only blood comes out of my mouth.
Malfoy looks at me in shock and asks what I would have done.
Unfortunately I can't answer, I just spit. Malfoy is doing something I didn't think was possible.
He drags me the last few meters to Poppy and disappears again.

Poppy is horrified as always and yells at me to stay away from Hermione, but I can't.
I tell her that I wasn't even near Hermione, but that I was in my room.
Poppy will take me to Professor Dumbeldore as quickly as I can.

We also meet Professor Snape at Dumbeldore. Snape looks horrified when he sees the blood and Dumbeldore looks worried too.

"It doesn't help Albus, we have to get Harry out of here if he doesn't want to die," says Snape gravely.

"Yes, Severus, that will be for the best, but where are we taking him, I mean Sirius is not okay, that Hermione would know immediately," says Dumbeldore worried.

"What about other relatives?" Asks Poppy.

Dumbeldore and Snape decide to take me back to the Dursleys.
Great, but I don't want to go there.
But unfortunately I can't choose that and have to endure it.